Crushes and Boiling Water

There is something

wonderful about the feeling you get when you have a crush on someone. When you see them and you get butterflies and barf out word vomit. There is no better feeling than the one you get when they smile at you or laugh. Its like bliss, like slowly falling into a bed of fluffy feathers. You just feel light. There's no better feeling in the world than the feeling you get when you have a crush on someone. Its something lovely isn't it? Not knowing if you'll get the courage to ask for their number or even do something as simple as whisper hello. You're not quite sure why you like this person you know nothing about, there's just some fatal attraction there, some hope that you'll find something in common. Some middle ground to tread lightly upon. Even if you don't, that split second where you get to stare at them and your heart flutters is sometimes simply enough. Its the greatest feeling you have ever felt even though its nerve racking. The thought of approaching a complete stranger and throwing your feelings out there is terrifying yet your on the brink of doing just that. Your on that line of embarrassment where you might just ask for their number but your not quite sure you should. Then you do, and the feeling you get when they say yes is the most exhilarating, heart thumping moment and you do everything you can to stop yourself from jumping up and down and you smile instead. A smile of accomplishment, bravery, and fondness for that person. Once they walk away is when the jumping for joy happens, when your all alone in your room, or where ever your secret jumping spot is. When your all alone and there's no witnesses to tattle on your excitement. Even when your crush says no when you build up the confidence to ask for their number there is still a feeling of joy. Joy for the fact that you were brave enough to ask, for the fact that the no means you have ruled out at least one person who is obviously not meant to be in your life at that exact moment. Joy for the practice you needed for the asking of that very question in the future. Having a crush warms your soul like a pot of boiling water. It heats up your heart, your veins, and the very blood your made of. You feel warm and happy for a split second and for every second that you see that person after that. I have never understood why the call it a "crush" maybe its the feeling you get in your heart, the one that makes you feel like your going to explode. Although, I find it exhilarating, something new and exciting, something that shouldn't be crushed and sound painful by the word. A crush is an exciting moment, a moment that when it hits you, you know, even if you don't know why. You know the feeling of butterflies and the frustration of the fact that your brain wont work with your mouth and you spit out words that you never knew existed. Then the only thing in your head for days is that person, wondering when you'll see them again. Wondering if you'll get the chance to fumble on your words and trip on the underlining question of if they like you back or not. Its like solving a mystery, wondering if its fate, looking for their quirks and their flirting words to make sure there's no question on if they like you back. You want all the answers now, you want to take the time to figure everything out, to see if they are the one. To see if they will be a part of your life even if it's for a split moment. Your willing to throw your heart onto the very edge of your own sleeve just to see if they will tug and pull at it, to see if it will all be worth it in the end. There is just something wonderful about the feeling of a crush, the feeling of liking a mystery and wanting to solve it. There is just something wonderful about the feeling you get when you have a crush on someone, and when unknowingly, that crush has a crush on you.