Here we go again....
Once again I'm having issues finding time to type my heart out on this blog. Let alone a computer to type it on. Trust me I have a lot I'd like to share with you if only the means to do so. Recently, I've found myself stuck in a rut. A rut full of moving, job searching, laziness and motivation. The only thing that I know is constant as of now is the man who stands behind me every day. Yep, that's right Pine View boy is still here. Thank goodness for that. I cant seem to find a balance lately. Have you ever felt like that? Like your frazzled. There's twenty thousand things you have planned for your life and they are all stuck in the same exact spot in your brain. Lets just say things come out jumbled. I'm like that crayon box you dig through when you cant seem to decide what color you want for your next extravagant piece of art work. The advice I have to give to myself and to everyone else reading this that feels the same way is, patience. The one virtue that I am very much so lacking in. See, Pine View boy seems to have this down to a T.. He's always telling me "some day" when I ask him crazy questions about our house, or the white and black spotted puppy we are going to have. He reminds me of that word patience, that if you don't take it slow, you'll miss it. All of it. You have to live your life based on what is happening to you right now, at this very exact stinking moment. I understand if this moment isn't your greatest and you'd rather focus on the future because its easier. Trust me, I'm right there with you holding a banner that says run this way for the white picket fence and the dog in the yard. My advice although, is don't. It might not seem like it now, but these hard times are your glory days. The struggle is what will make you stronger. You can't just ignore whats going on at this moment and replace it for something futuristic. What if today was you last day? The last day for that hug from that special someone. The last day to be dancing in the rain. The last day for everything? I bet if it was you'd regret spending it talking about that house your going to have. Live for now, for the good things, there's a little bit of wonderful in everything that is awful. Find it. Search for the good in that rain storm, the good in saying goodbye, or even the good in job searching. Don't let certain moments pass you by because your to busy worrying about what is ahead, or you just might miss your whole darn life. That would be a shame. So, keep your head held high as always, smile and take it one step at a time. As for now and always I'll be here, typing you words of wisdom. Its your choice to take it as it is or not at all. Oh and special thanks to Pine View boy for the idea for this blog post and also for letting me use his computer to type it on up. If your reading, I love you :). Ta Ta for now folks.
