Untold Secrets

I never said

how much I don't want to be remembered by the way my boobs fill out my T-Shirt. I am a woman, I have curves and to much fat in some places. That being said, my body attracts people first. If some man told me that the first thing he noticed about me was my smile, I'd call bull crap. I noticed where his eyes were and it definitely wasn't on my face. I get sick of men trying to fondle me. I know that sounds ridiculous, like every guy is out to get me. I am not one of those girls who wear half shirts and tank tops that make my cleavage hang out, I dont wear mini skirts I think I am actually pretty modest for this generation. That is the thing, I dont feel like what I wear has anything to do with it. I think my generation on the other hand does. All there is on tv is half naked actors, sex jokes, and porn. I think this gives men a bad example of what a woman should be, and how they should be treated. No I will not send you naked photos, and I most definetly wont walk around with half of my body hanging out. I want to be treated like the woman I am. No, me wanting to hang out doesnt mean that I want to sleep with you, because I don't. I just want a normal man who will hold my hand, instead of trying to hold my boobs. I am sick of getting treated like every other girl, I am not an easy lay, nor am I a one night stand type of woman. I am the type of woman who likes to be romantic, who likes to have fun without my body being a requirement for the fun. I think women are to often disrespected, and to often dont stand up for themselves. I feel like I'm worth much more than my body betrays and I think every woman should feel the same way. I think women use their bodys as assets, "well if I wear a lower cut shirt maybe he will like me". That is nonsense. He wont like you, he will like the message you are putting off, which isnt a good one. My body is not one of my assets, It is a shell, a shell that holds my soul and the things I need to survive. It doesnt define who I am, who I am goes much deeper than that. You can love my body all you want, but if you dont love my soul you wont ever know me or stand a chance. I wear clothes that cover most of the things woman choose to show off for a reason. I dont want to be portrayed as someone who will sleep with you for one, and for two I have more pride in myself than that. I know my personality is great and I know that if you dont love me for that then your not worth my time. Men will love me for my body regardless of what I say, I just wish they would take the time to see past that, to realize that it shouldnt be about that at all. I deserve respect, not someone grabbing my butt or my chest, weather it be in public or not. I feel as if doing those things is looking down on me, not realizing how much I am worth and what I should be treated like. No I dont think your jokes about my boobs are funny and neither are your sexual comments. I am done being treated like a sexual slave and being ignored once I tell men no. I think women need to take a stand. It is everywhere from the clothes that stores sell, to movies, music, tv shows, and text messages. I dont go around telling men gross things about their bodies because if I did I would be considerd a slut,whore, someone who sleeps around, yet it is just fine for men to treat women this way? No. I dont think it is. Treat me like the lady I am or get out of my life. I am ready for a change. I wont feel bad for saying no to you. I wont change the way I dress just because soceity says I should. Hold my hand and take me to a movie instead of to your bedroom. Text me sweet things instead of sexual comments. I need a man, not a boy anymore. I know what I want, what I deserve and someone who uses me for my body is not one of them, and I think every woman would agree.