Finding Love and Happiness.
Its been a while since I have committed myself to my blog world, I have had so much going on. For that I am sorry, but I am now writing once again so here we go. Through out my life I have been hurt by a lot of men. Every boyfriend I thought I loved sucked. They were the kind of relationships that ended with my head shoved into a Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream bowl, and any movie on that could make me cry until I couldn't anymore. See back then I thought that meant true love, if your heart literally broke when he left you it must be love. That was until it started happening with every relationship I had ever been in, they all ended the same. Then I changed my mind. From then on out love just simply didn't exist. I started dating someone and stayed in that relationship just to say I was in one. I wasn't truly happy because in my world being happy would mean love, and if i remembered correctly that sorta thing didn't exist. Then I met him... this guy who took my breath away and swept me off my feet. That sounds cliche and all but its damn close to the truth. He had my heart the moment I saw him sitting on Pine view's beach with his toes in the water. We were friends at first, and then he made me believe in love. I fell, and boy did I fall hard. I don't know if it was the late night texting conversations or that he is as ticklish as I am. He changed how I feel about love, he smiles at me and that's all it takes. I never knew I could care about someone so much. To be honest it is scary, but its the feeling you get on a roller coaster kind of scary, your so scared but yet you'd do anything to ride again because it makes you feel good. He's my best friend, I can tell him anything and everything and at the end of the day he will still be there holding my hand, and that right there is love within itself. I have never felt the feelings I feel when I'm with him with anyone else, and that's the kind of feeling I'd fight for. I guess what I'm saying is you should give love a chance if you feel it. Don't let a person who makes you feel so alive go. They could be everything you've ever wanted. No matter how hard the situation is or what you'll have to go through to keep that person, keep them. You wont find love in a Ben and Jerry's Ice cream container, hell you probably wont find yours on Pine view's beach either, but that's not the point. No matter where you find love, weather it's in the strangest of places or a cousin of a friend, keep it. You'll be the happiest person alive once you find it. I love my relationship now. Not because I can say I have one, or show him off to my friends and family, but because we are truly in love. At the end of the day he loves me for me, and that's the kind of person I want to spend forever with, he's my one worth fighting for, and someday, I swear I'll marry that boy. Find the person you can be you around and that can bring you nothing but pure happiness and love.
Its been a while since I have committed myself to my blog world, I have had so much going on. For that I am sorry, but I am now writing once again so here we go. Through out my life I have been hurt by a lot of men. Every boyfriend I thought I loved sucked. They were the kind of relationships that ended with my head shoved into a Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream bowl, and any movie on that could make me cry until I couldn't anymore. See back then I thought that meant true love, if your heart literally broke when he left you it must be love. That was until it started happening with every relationship I had ever been in, they all ended the same. Then I changed my mind. From then on out love just simply didn't exist. I started dating someone and stayed in that relationship just to say I was in one. I wasn't truly happy because in my world being happy would mean love, and if i remembered correctly that sorta thing didn't exist. Then I met him... this guy who took my breath away and swept me off my feet. That sounds cliche and all but its damn close to the truth. He had my heart the moment I saw him sitting on Pine view's beach with his toes in the water. We were friends at first, and then he made me believe in love. I fell, and boy did I fall hard. I don't know if it was the late night texting conversations or that he is as ticklish as I am. He changed how I feel about love, he smiles at me and that's all it takes. I never knew I could care about someone so much. To be honest it is scary, but its the feeling you get on a roller coaster kind of scary, your so scared but yet you'd do anything to ride again because it makes you feel good. He's my best friend, I can tell him anything and everything and at the end of the day he will still be there holding my hand, and that right there is love within itself. I have never felt the feelings I feel when I'm with him with anyone else, and that's the kind of feeling I'd fight for. I guess what I'm saying is you should give love a chance if you feel it. Don't let a person who makes you feel so alive go. They could be everything you've ever wanted. No matter how hard the situation is or what you'll have to go through to keep that person, keep them. You wont find love in a Ben and Jerry's Ice cream container, hell you probably wont find yours on Pine view's beach either, but that's not the point. No matter where you find love, weather it's in the strangest of places or a cousin of a friend, keep it. You'll be the happiest person alive once you find it. I love my relationship now. Not because I can say I have one, or show him off to my friends and family, but because we are truly in love. At the end of the day he loves me for me, and that's the kind of person I want to spend forever with, he's my one worth fighting for, and someday, I swear I'll marry that boy. Find the person you can be you around and that can bring you nothing but pure happiness and love. 
